My Random Ponderings

I have had a lot of time to think lately. I do whatever I can to avoid my homework, and thinking upon an infinite number of subjects is one such way I procrastinate these days. When my mind begins to wander, I think more about questions than I do actual events or subjects. Yes, I question aspects of events and subjects, but do not actually think about them. 

What is it I spend my time asking myself? Well, I shall enlighten you.

• My most often thought about question:

       Am I going down the right life path to reach my full potential? Or am I missing opportunities I never even knew I had?


This question plagues my thoughts every waking moment. I even dream about it in the forms of extremely realistic nightmares. It's truly unnerving. And sadly, it is a question that will remain unanswered for many years to come.

• The most annoying of my ponderings:

       Did I reach the high point of my life last semester in London?


Tragic to think, right? Especially considering I'm still only 20. While this question, too, will go with out answering, I have convinced myself that the answer is no. London was the most amazing time of my life, but only so far. I have much left to see and experience in my hopefully long lifetime, so I need to stay positive when it comes to this issue. Glass half full and that sort of thing.

• My most heinous pondering:

       Could there be a bull shark in my lake? 


Yes, dear audience, I realize the utter insanity of this thought. BUT, I have a ridiculous phobia of sharks and of being devoured by one. So, in my mind, it is a completely rational thought. Deal.

• My pondering that my boyfriend finds the most aggravating:

       What is the worst thing that could possibly go wrong? OK, how do we fix that even though it isn't a problem and may never become one???


I'm an overanalyzer. It's a curse. If I could refrain from doing it, I most certainly would. I have found it to be easier said than done though. You know the saying "If it isn't broken, don't fix it"? Well, my mind has never been able to grasp that. Instead, my mind goes to, "It'll break eventually so how do we plan and prevent that from happening, or is it even worth working on?" So, being an overanalyzer is my cross to bear. But unfortunately for my boyfriend, it is now his to bear also... Sorry babe! <3

• My other random pondering:

       Should I stay in Texas for the summer or go back home?
       Can I be perpetually intoxicated all summer between my birthday and all the weddings?
       What do I do about furniture when I get an apartment?
       Can I finish a 3 pound cinnamon roll by myself? I think so.
       Why did Sonic get rid of their dollar menu?!
       Will Qadalfi just die already?




Welp, those are my thoughts for you to digest. If you somehow have the answers to any of them. Please let me know, because they are haunting me.